And the rest will follow.....

As I sit here thinking about the upcoming New Year, it's hard to believe 2011 is about to close out. Christmas is about 2 weeks away and i'm not sure what I think about that. This year's Christmas has the possibility to be a good one..but it may not. I've made some changes to my life starting with a budget..and I wish that was going better than it is. Living within your means can be tough..but rewarding. It's always those "uh-oh" moments that get you. My car had to have a $550 repair and I'm still recovering from it. Anyways, things will get better..i've never been so excited about paying off debt. I'm also starting to realize that I'm responsible for most, if not all of my debt. Not the economy, not the bank, not the not having a job for over a year...me. It's that simple. So I've been in alot of thought lately about the future. I wish I know all of the answers..but I don't. One of the things that I've been feeling for quite awhile is that I need to stop for awhile, and just regroup, refocus, and quite simply..reconnect with God. I remember the days of being able to feel God's nudges and leadings. I've been so busy doing..which there's nothing wrong with that. However, there's a time just to stop and sit. I really want to go into the future knowing where my life is heading. I got some ideas and they are big ones. So, as many of you know, I work with the youth at Youth United at Riverside Community Church. I've been doing that for I think over 3 years now. I felt a few weeks ago that one of the things I needed to do was to step back from YU and re-evaluate things. So with that, next wednesday will be the last YU for the year. During the Christmas break I will be praying and seeking direction. I really believe God will show me the way to go. I'm not sure exactly if or when I will be coming back. I just know I need to back away. In the book of Isaiah, it is written: Isaiah 30:21
21 And your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, "This is the way, walk in it," when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left.

I have to believe that He will be leading the way, directing my footsteps. I must say, I'm ready for something new. It's been a rough couple of years, and I need some change. So with that...I'm going to seek God.....And the rest will follow......
The Messenjah